Crest

Crest

Waves of anger and depression

Slapping against my being like gray waves

On a black sand beach

Too hot to walk on

Too dreary to sit and watch

So I’ll move along and check the swatch

Of this new satin and silky fabric

This stuff that is supposed to hold it all together

This stuff that brings happiness in any kind of weather

Oh look, the moths and the worms have left their say

I cannot speak, I cannot pray

Or I can but I’m afraid of what I will speak

Everything I’ve loved, I seek

But have found this place of dark derision

I have come to the point of stark decision

Do I jump into this mosh pit that I can see

Or do I wait for these things I cannot

This waiting is hell, it seems to go on eternal

This silence is torture, this noise is infernal

When all that my soul longs for is a sound

A sound that casts all to the ground

All that is not beauty, down

I still cannot hear it.

Maybe I should move

Maybe I should change my place

Maybe I should change my face

Like all the other superstars

Maybe I should join in the farce

Known as jaunty superstition and hype

Known as virtual expertise, so ripe 

Is the fruit of all our monstrosities

Painted to appear like lovely charities

We mock what we cannot know

I look to the mountains and see the snow

I long to know its cold, pure light.

I have wandered far, I have wandered here

I have left the wheel and refused to steer

The course that every other person seems to go

They ask and ask, I answer “I don’t know,

I have no idea of which way to go

And I’m not sure anyone else does either.”

I pause for a moment to enjoy a breather

And everyone else perceives it as ignorance

Simply because I am not speaking

They leave me standing there with the answer in my soul

So, that’s ok, I’ll just walk to whole

I’ll just meander myself off into the distance

I’m told I need a guide, a companion, a help

Yet all of these have seem to go their own ways

I look to stars, I lift my gaze

I decide to follow the whisperings of the wind

This wind, the last of my unseen friends

Begins to dance along the river

This place is good, my spine does quiver

In the knowing of nothing at all

In the understanding of almost everything

I feel a song, a dance, I sing

To a song that only the dogs can hear

A song I know and love so well

A song that makes the gray waves swell

Until they crest into a blue-green sea

Beauty Among Us

 Beauty Among Us

Amongst the earth

Amongst the stones

Beauty blossoms

And carries on

The truths that we all know within

A simple saunter, a gentle whim

Is often the only thing we need

It’s good to know

It’s good to succeed

Yet the only thing we really need

Is to love and to be loved

Love is really our only way

And love always shows up in beauty

It always shows up with hope

Amongst the earths

Amongst the stones

Amongst the anger

Amongst the drones

Beauty blossoms

And carries on

There is always a beauty amongst us

Sense Eternal

Sense eternal

there seems to be a place where I live

yet I cannot seem to dwell there

I cannot seem to breathe the air there

all the while smoldering in this sordid heat

and dryness, dark and dust

I live in a land of angels and oceans

Streaming rivers, birds in flight

Mists dancing with the mountains

Where words are never enough

You have to breathe in the beauty

For it just becomes a part of you

I feel it in the depths of me

I know I am there

I can feel the colors, the sounds 

The movements of the symphonies eternal

yet I can still smell the dust, the heat

Instead of running through golden fields of wheat

I simply sit here and yearn for more

I refuse to live in an unending chore

But rather dwell in the beauty

Knowing that it must flow forth from me

Water for the trees

Healing for the nations

Joy and hope and deep libations

Of all that is good and real

there seems to be a place where I live

I simply have to dwell there

or maybe rather let it dwell in me

Recalibrate

Recalibrate

Sometimes when I feel like life is just one hassle after another

I have to stop and look at places like this

Realizing that there are things and places that have been here so much longer than a moment

Things that will go on in their beauty for so much longer than I will ever dream

There is beauty and there is mystery in every thing

I just simply have to choose what I choose to see

I simply have to choose what I choose to believe

I simply have to breathe in the mountain air and remember

What it is that truly makes me alive…

There now….I thrive

Violet Still

Violet Still

We rest here

Violet spirits amongst steel gray chains

The interlocking of humanity

Amongst the confines of metal earth

We seem so ethereal here

Because we are

Bringing beauty to a place of woven barriers

These so called borders

That do nothing but impede our way

Yet our beauty will always have its say

Our majesty will always point to the path

Of life and love and tragedy

Of pain, of joy, of comedy

All of those roots that feed us life

We shine for now, now comes the night

We are still

We are still

Everlasting

The Choosing

The Choosing

I’m at a place of mental exhaustion

And that’s a very humiliating thing for me to say

I’ve always been proud of my ability to handle adversity

Chaos, struggle were great unknowns

Now I find myself hardly able to remember my name

Is this the way it must be when all is the same

When all is a frenzied rendition?

Maybe so

Maybe not

I refuse to enter the world of dry rot

The place where all is a beggar

The place where all one seeks is pleasure

Where all one finds is pain

I am not going there

I rather decide to see what is before me

A rising sun, a setting moon

A simple lunch I take at noon

These things brings a spark of the grateful into my soul

This is a step toward me being whole

Simply being thankful for the good around me

I understand there is frantic and frenetic maelstrom

But I also know there is dancing and music

So I choose to imbibe in the latter

Relishing a glass of California wine

Listening to the weavings of the Ponderosa pine

Allowing beauty to alter my course

I can feel the breezes from the oceans