Conqueror

Conqueror
Something much bigger than all of us is bringing us together
Drawing us from all parts of the world, all parts of society
Drawing us into itself and thus into each other
Something that has been forever known to change the world
But is rarely shown
Something that has freed men and women and children from slavery
Something that has conquered disease and even death
It is drawing us, wooing us, calling for us, longing for us
And it is Love.
It is Love.
Love conquers all

K. Duane Carter 5-13-09

Wow. Two months since I have posted anything at all. I have my reasons, but I will have to wait until later to explain them. I have basically spent the last 2 months of my life having God give me a complete overhaul. Now please don't misunderstand me. I know He isn't finished, but I am definitely not the same person I was just a couple of months ago. The changes He has made are beyond my reasoning, so I can't really do a good job writing it out right now. Maybe one day I'll be able to look back and find the words, but I'm kind of hoping that I don't. I think the biggest change in me has been my losing the need to know the answer and embracing the mysterious side of God. God owes me no explanations, and I am happy to trust Him and love Him even in those places where I have no idea what He is up to and where it even seems like He is absent. I will have no opportunity to praise Him in heaven during times of loss, disappointment, and confusion. I have that opportunity here and I will not waste it. I've spent so much time and energy in my life looking for answers, and all He wanted me to do was to sit at His feet and love Him. So that is where I am at. I may seem a little more care-free, and I may seem even disinterested, but I only care about what He cares about. I am definitely losing my "serious" side. I'm tired of having to be serious with God. He laughs a lot. He is joy. He is happiness. He is peace. That doesn't sound somber to me, so why do I have to be somber every time I do something "spiritual"? That's another thing He has taught me. My whole life is spiritual. It's not just church. It's not just something I do. It is who I am. I am His. I am always with Him, and He is always with me. I can worship anytime, in any place, and in many ways. And I don't even have to be serious about it. So if you see me in church during prayer with my eyes wide open looking up to the ceiling, don't be offended. I just simply refuse to be confined by religious rules and somber rituals. Plus I want to see Him smiling on me, because that is what He does all the time. Sorry, I've gone long. I pray He brings all of us into His love, because when He does that He brings us all into Himself, and that is truly heaven on earth. Father, let Your kingdom come, let Your will be done on this earth right now as it is in heaven right now. I love You.